New Year

2011 is right around the corner, and although I look forward to it with renewed hope and dreams for our future, I also know it is silly to think that our problems will automatically disappear because the date has changed.  And unfortunately, 2010 is burned into our memory bank.  I already know that 2011 won't be any easier as the house is going to consume us for at least the first quarter of the year.  We will be busy making decisions regarding fire damage as well as what other changes we would like to make while we have the man power to do it.  We have already discussed not moving back in.  We are thinking about slapping a for sale sign on it and seeing what happens.  But that means we need to pony up the cash for new windows and a few other items to make it ready for sale.  But even if we do move back in, it will be a much different house than we were used to.  I don't know what we will do with 2 full floors of livable space!  Our office closes at noon today, so I'm off to visit Nigel and then go to the house to work on our inventory/write-off list. 

I'm still doing okay.  I'm controlling my emotions pretty well, but it's my thoughts I have problems with.  And to be honest, I think I'm still living in denial that this is all really happening.  I'm not really angry, I guess I'm just feeling defeated and overwhelmed.  And sorry for both Gus and myself.  I don't know why we can't catch a break. 

I miss our home, and I miss my cat.  And by writing this blog entry, I've turned my emotions on, so I'm going to take a break.