Deflated

I have no idea where I left off in my last post, but yesterday I had another scan and labs done and the scan showed some fluid in my uterus. The nurse called and said that the fluid needed to be drained so I was to come in today and have the doctor drain it. I arrived for my 8:15 appointment and sat in the waiting room until 9:40. (This is typical for an appointment to see him.) They finally called me back and the ultrasound tech started the scan. The follicles are still growing and there are still plenty of them. The doctor came in near the end and they showed him the fluid. He then explained to me that this appears to be the same type of fluid that was in my fallopian tubes and the fact that it is showing up in my uterus is not good. He wasn't sure how it got there, but it is possible that the scar from where they removed the fibroid is producing this fluid. He said he would remove it and if it continued to come back, we would have to postpone the transfer. Tears were filling my eyes the entire time he was talking. He assured me that this didn't mean I wouldn't get pregnant, just that we might have to wait and go through some more hormone therapy before they could do a transfer. Regardless, the egg retrieval was still on.


He then went ahead and drained the fluid and after seeing it he said it may have just been some menstrual tissue leftover from my last period. If that is the case, everything is back on as planned. However, the only way to know is to wait it out. So the nurse is going to call me later today and let me know what the next step is. I'm assuming I'll be going back several times this weekend for scans. Because he had to do this procedure today, they are putting me on antibiotics.


I know that there is still a chance that everything is okay and we are still going through with everything as planned, but my excitement has deflated. I guess I'm just preparing myself for the worst. I find it hard to believe that every little thing that can go wrong, has gone wrong. God has gotten me this far, I just have to continue to trust that this is all part of His plan.